She’s arguably one of the biggest Hollywood stars and seems supremely confident but Jennifer Lawrence says she’s become hyperaware of her words – especially to the press – and her reputation online.
“I’m so scared to say anything now. I can see every negative way that people can take it, and I don’t want to sound like I’m complaining. ‘Oh, she’s so conceited now. Oh, she’s so jaded now’,” Lawrence said in an interview with The New York Times.
The 22-year-old also revealed she has fallen into the trap of Googling herself to see what people are saying about her.
This included searching for the phrase “Jennifer Lawrence Ugly” when she was in the throes of her period.
“I can’t think of a more wasteful use of my time than to worry about this,” she said.
“Why do I care what people think? But I do. I just can’t pretend I don’t care.
“I get really insecure about it. The world makes an opinion of you without ever meeting you.
“That worry should not bother me, but it does.”
She said she tries to separate her personal self from her public self to survive.
“I find a certain peace by thinking of me in public as sort of an avatar self,” Lawrence admitted.
“You out there can have the avatar me. I can keep me.
“And I just try to acknowledge that this scrutiny is stressful, and that anyone would find it stressful.”
Lawrence, who stars in the Hunger Games movie franchise, is currently writing a script with comedian Amy Schumer.